Ego lives off the self esteem

A parasite, that thing that nags inside the insides of you making you feel good/completely bad, your Ego is a parasite.

It grazes on the marginal increases (or decreases) of your true value. A value that comes from a compliment, an exaggerated self worth hardly concealing some deep rooted personality flaw, or a misery. It doesn't matter so long your whole focus is put on 'I' every time you try to think of something.

A true value is usually less than what you think of your self and more than what others think of you. Vice versa maybe. There is no equation for it. (My usual answer to this to is NO-ONE so that I stop fearing the fears I made in my head.)

Self esteem is like fast food junk. It helps making the ego grow to eventually become a morbid obese. Until, if you are lucky, something (bad) happens and brings it back to its real state. And then we call that (bad) something a good thing, an experience. Or whatever.

So should you abandon your self esteem? Well..

There is self-esteem and self-respect. With a high self esteem you over emphasize those good things that you have or do. With a high self respect you live trying to fix every flaw you have or do. Confidence comes from self respect and not from self esteem.

Notice how every D-listed celebrity is all over the place with their arrogance and annoying pompous behavior? Totally out of mind. This is what sets great minds that lived and have been living among us from D- & B- listed celebs. Humbleness. Self respect.

Measurable Emotions

Like we've been taught in schools and universities, in order to make a sensible good argument, we should suppress, spot then ignore emotions because they cannot be measured or calculated.

Emotions are elusive, in a scientifically dominant world, only material and calculate-able things count.

Almost everyone have watched Wael Ghonim come-back interview, a UAE-based google employee who disappeared for 12 days because of participating in the protests in Egypt.

After the video went viral, a Facebook page that was created to support him went from 1 fan to 50,000 in 30 minutes, reached 100,000 fans in less than 12 hours.

Ghonim's emotional words has changed many people's opinions. People were moved by his honest words in the interview. Now, in Egypt, people who were never interested in the fight are marching now towards Liberation Square, in thousands.

Photo (c) Bahgat Osman

5 ways to know how much you hate yourself

How busy do you need to be to get over yourself?

You can't stand boredom
There's no such thing as me-time in your life. It's all about socializing and being with some body around. Whether it is over the phone or over the internet. This is frustrating because at some point in your life you will realize that all you have is yourself and you should learn living with it.

You keep yourself busy all the time
This is one of the most common ways, you have to keep your mind occupied with whatever, anything.

You keep your mind focused most of the time
You're always keeping your brain working, focusing on something moving, a movie, people or a pet. It occupies your mind. You love it.

You love being surrounded by people
No people is the equivalent of death to you, people are your drug of choice. You have them on your phone, they text you, you talk to them.

You love being distracted
You listen to music, you write, you drink, you eat, you love, you will do anything to be but with yourself.


But it's boring!
It is not bad to be surrounded by people and have them all the time.

The problem is the moment we are out of work, out of people out of ideas. Our problem is boredom, we perceive it as the enemy.

And it is, if we couldn't handle it well, boredom will be the enemy.

To know how to just be with ourselves is an art we have yet to master.

To stop and stare at the beauty that surrounds us, outside our comfort zone, a very trivial act but we are usually afraid of.

Think of it... not!
The solution is not just being, it is that when you think that you are doing nothing you actually over think, over analyze, over process every single word and you listen to these cancerous thoughts.

Next time you're around your beloved ones, feel free to stay silent, and enjoy the act of not just not talking, but also not thinking. Whenever you're there, indulge.

Insomnia by Jana Traboulsy (c) 2010

What's beginner's luck anyway?

Picasso

It is acting in a way such that the person isn't aware of the risks, the possibilities and the real deal. It is performance sans ego. It is acting with a certain level of ignorance, accepting and acknowledging such incompetency.

To start with the confidence that you have nothing to lose, not your time, your money or your reputation is the key object to getting luck at your side.

The time comes when a person develops status, reputation and an identity. The identity that normally an ego sides with.

As soon as you have that formed identity, the mind is occupied with certain facts from ego, and the master gets busy protecting the newly found identity, the ego.

How often do we hear about the humbleness of great minds, too good to have an ego. The saying "little person, big ego" is nothing but truth.

In biographical documentations of world's great artists, an artist is usually portrayed as suffering right before his masterpiece is delivered. Suffering to a level of self loath and hate. To a level of major depression. Until there's no ego involved in the process of producing the piece of art.